Death of the Artist | A Memoir Archive of Becoming

Two overlapping aged, wrinkled, blank parchment papers with rough edges on a black background.

Most people heal in the quiet—I don’t.
I heal in the constant noise of creation.
And it’s costing my sanity.

A crumpled and torn lined notebook paper sheet with holes on the left side.

and I miss you,
but I miss me more.

Journal

AN ENTRY BEFORE THE ARCHIVE OPENS

What happens when the part of you that won't stay buried comes back to haunt you?

When Jackson's marriage falls apart, he does what he knows best: he runs. But this time, there's no home left to run to. Just a laptop, a journal, and a suitcase moving through coastal Spain and beyond, chasing distance the way he once chased inspiration. The part of him that once lived for art—for beauty, for meaning—dies quietly, leaving only silence.

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That is, until a ghost named Dom shows up.
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Flamboyant, unhinged, and impossible to ignore, Dom arrives like a dare, dragging Jackson through the wreckage of a self-destructive love and demanding to be heard.

Death of the Artist is a memoir pulled from journal entries and lyrical prose, structured not in chapters, but in twelve steps. Set against the backdrop of international life in Sitges, Spain, it's the story of a gay man reclaiming himself and learning, through the darkest nights, what it means to write a life back into existence.
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For anyone who's ever loved someone they couldn't save—and had to create their way back to self.

TRANSMISSIONS

MUSIC FROM THE MEMOIR

Each song shares its name with a chapter title,
offering a glimpse into how
my life sounded while it was
still unraveling.
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LISTEN EVERYWHERE

LOCKED TRACKS

new music coming soon

raising the frequency.
2:08
breaking point.
3.41
golden (love is but a dream).
2.57
circles.
:31

Confessions

A SIMPLE, INTIMATE CONFESSIONAL ARCHIVE

Gold ornamental divider with a central diamond shape and symmetrical lines extending horizontally.

some secrets are easier to write than say out loud.
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for a long time, mine only existed behind closed pages.
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now the archive is opening.
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leave your secret behind. I'LL LEAVE SOMETHING IN RETURN.

Book cover for 'Polar Nights' shows a person falling against northern lights above a snowy mountain.

LEAVE YOUR CONFESSION

Your secret's safe with me. And Dom.

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TARGET RELEASE: SEPTEMBER 2026

Lit candles, a blank parchment, steaming teacup, an antique clock, and a bell on a dark wooden table.

Community

AFTER MIDNIGHT, WE GATHER

Who you'll meet at Babes Bar,
in order of appearance:

Amelia

A warm, wise Scot who’s completely unbothered by life's chaos. Always has a spliff somewhere in her purse, and never remembers what she was looking for until she finds it.

Eve O'Licious

The Saturday night drag queen of Babes Bar—live vocals, sharp comedy, and enough sass to fill the room. Fearless on stage, tender off it. Claims the sequins are costume. They're not.

Sam

The almost-always-shirtless bar owner with a bottle of Fireball he keeps hidden for friends. Left everything behind once to start over. Knows how to spot someone else doing the same.

Adam

When Eve takes her wig off, he's sober, vegan, and the best listener in the room. Shows up at the right moment—usually with an invitation to dinner.

Tom

Adam's partner. Originally from Poland, his accent carries a fragment of every place he's ever lived. Tells the truth without softening it. Somehow, it always lands exactly when it’s needed most.

KIMMY

A petite Australian always found with a wine glass in hand. Forever on the hunt for a good time, and more often than not, a good man. Though sometimes, she forgets which is which.